I am 42 years old born and raised in Houston Texas all my life and at 19 I got panic attacks and got rid of them until I was 25 then they came back really bad and I had them for 4 or 5 years and went to a group that healed me and I became med free and anxiety free till I was 35 and that is when I got hurt on the job and had a shot in my spine and was told to go home right after and that left a hole in my spine and caused a leak and I had these bad headaches and by the next day I had a full blown panic attack and it took 13 weeks for work comp to let me get a blood patch to fix the leak and by then It was to late with the panic attacks THAT I STILL HAVE TO THIS DAY and then 6 months later I had strep throat and thought nothing of it and after 2 months went by i had a knot on my neck that did not bother me at all and 1 nite i was reading a doctors med book and thought i need to see a doctor fast and so I went the next morning and was put on antibiotics and after 2 weeks nothing and then on to a ENT that took time to get in and when I did he gave me the LOOK and that is when the fear got worse because I new from that look CANCER and after many neg test I had a biopsy and out of 42 lymph nodes 12 had squamous cell cancer. So after my long battle with treatment of Radiation I was ever so sick and in pain from my back Injury that was put on hold till I was done with my cancer treatment. After a while it was fighting work comp with my back and it took them forever to let me have the test I needed to find what was wrong and then it happened they approved the disckogram only after 4 years i think it was and that found the problem and then came surgery and had a spin fussion L4L5 and that failed and also had a staph infection in my spine after the surgery and then a year later my hardwear was removed and i ended up with a spine staph infection again and now here i await yet another fussion to be done AND THE LAST BUT IM SOOOOO CHICKEN BECAUSE 2 BACK SURGENS TOLD ME i WOULD DIE IF I HAVE THIS SURGERY BUT I NEED TO HAVE IT BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE A DISK AND IM IN A GREAT DEAL OF PAIN ALL THE TIME. Shit why me is what I say .
Anyway this is me and this is all the hell i have been through and still going through. Sorry it was sooooo long. Thought it would be good to let you all know about me and the kind of life i have. Im depressed and panic crazy woman trying to get well.