Currently I am drowning in stress and anxiety. I've been having panic attacks and am struggling with coping with my mental breakdowns. Every time my feelings get too overwhelming to handle, I hurt myself to feel relief (I am NOT suicidal). In fact, I have such an opportunistic life and I'm appreciative of it but at the same time I feel so worthless and undeserving. I'm hoping to get some advice on how to deal with mental breakdowns and panic attacks in a healthier way. I'm also struggling with self hatred and a severe lack of motivation. I feel uncomfortable talking to people about my problems in person so I don't think I can see a therapist. Please help!