I've been cutting since I was 12. Its been years. I dont know why, but I cant stop. Problems keep surfacing and life just seems to get worse. I dont understand myself sometimes. At times I ask myself "why do you do this to your body". But I don't know the answer to that. I feel so helpless and hopeless. I want help but it seems as if there is no way out of this constant battle. I don't know what to do anymore, really. The cuts keep getting deeper and deeper, I probably should have gotten/needed stitches at least a handful of times, but of course I never got them. I don't know what my purpose here is.. I just hope I find it.