I am 20 years old and I am in serious need of help for both my anxiety and depression. My mother died when I was 4, and my father died in 2010 just 6 days after my 18th birthday. The tragedy of it all has left me crippled emotionally, and I rarely know where to go. I was grateful to my best friend who was there for me through it, and missed her terribly when I left to California. Now, here's where the trauma sinks in.
I received a pension and life insurance from my father's company in regards to his passing. Because of this new found lump of money, and a year had passed, I decided to move back with my friends. Worst mistake of my life. For the first couple of weeks everything was okay aside from how much her and her boyfriend fought, but it slowly became more than that. It became personal. She was suddenly selfish, always needy, always making me sympathize with her. Because I love her I would spend thousands upon thousands of dollars over the course of months trying to get her to smile, or be happy, but most of all to APPRECIATE ME! I never felt like she ever actually cared for what I did for her, and more importantly care for me. It was always too easy for her to get the money, and I just thought she was depressed.
When we moved out together, found another place with a renter, I stopped helping her with everything. I stopped with rides, endless cash flow, and started questioning her behavior. Within months of this quasi seperation our friendship began to crumble beneath me and I didn't know what I had done. She started to disappear, she started to lie blatantly and she rarely feigned interest in my life. Today I googled the term "sociopath" and have finally gotten my answer.
I am here because of the amount of money lost on someone so cruel and devious, and the amount of emotional pain it is causing me as I type this. Does anyone have any advice or ways to help me cope with another loss?