Im 22 years old.
I'm majorly strugging in so many aspects of life right now. I have major relationship issues. I was sexually abused as a child(12 and 13), by the man I call my father. I was in a mentally/physically abusive relationship for 5 years(15-20).. I have dated a few people since then, but now I am dating a guy who has every single quality I'd want in someone. I don't say anything to him but I find myself unable to trust him, I get on his facebook, look through his things. Every day I'm paranoid he is going to dump me.. I don't feel worthy of him.. at all. he is such a great guy
Lately all I want to do is sleep, Im practically failing out of school, I just feel lost with my life. My friends are all graduating from college and I just feel so useless. I've gained weight this past year and all my mom tells me is about how fat I am and how bad I need to lose weight.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to work(even though Im responsible for all bills at my apt since my roommate broke her hand). I wish I could just sleep for weeks.
I hope someone can help. Lately I don't even feel like living the rest of my life