Well, I am feeling much better. I was taking meds, and seeing a counselor for a year or so.. A couple of weeks ago, I weened off all of my medication. The Mental drugs were giving me high blood pressure and causing my thyroids some troubles. I was on high blood pressure medicine, Synthroid, and several mental drugs.. After I weened off the mental drugs, I was able to stop taking my blood pressure and synthroid medicines..
Anyway, I may need to take some anxiety pills, but as of right now, I am not depressed, and I feel I have a new life in front of me.. Please don't give up.. I know it could be any day that my depression returns.
I have been on this site and read what others were writing, and I think it feels better to know that a lot of people are experiencing the same issues..
Some people come to this site only when they are feeling depressed, but I have promised a few people that I will be here for the long haul. If you ever need to talk, please message me. I hope that you all start feeling better, as I am experiencing.
I think there are a few factors that made me feel better..
1. I wanted to feel better. I hated to feel bad.. First thing, you need to tell yourself that you "want" to feel better... Somewhere in the back of my mind, I was hoping that my negative energy would be seen by others and i would get attention from it.. I knew this.. but it seemed like I couldn't stop myself from it.. Lesson learned "you got to want to feel better".
2. Counseling. You need to seek counseling either from a paid counselor or a religious leader. By talking to someone, YOU will learn more about yourself. They will ask you questions that makes you think of things that you normally would not have thought of. I read somewhere the other day that if you are seeing a counselor, you will most likely see them around 22 to 30 times.. being every couple of weeks, that is most likely between a year or two.
3. Drugs. Somethings can't be fixed unless they give you some medicine for it. It does not mean that you will take them forever, but, you may need them for a few months or a few years.. Maybe forever.. Depending on whats wrong..
4. Exercise. Try walk at a fast pace for at least 30 minutes a day.. This builds up the healthy endorphins in your noggin. If this last sentence that greatly explained it in scientific form didn't work then, I would say that walking just makes you feel better.. One thing, you are outside and your mind is cleared of trash. Pinned up energy turns in to anxiety. Maybe..
5. Don't give up.. I was suicidal just months ago. I thought about it 24/7.. I didn't give up because I have kids, wife, parents and siblings that would have had to take up my responsibilities. I felt as though no one loved me.. I felt helpless. I felt lower than whale shit.. I hope I do not ever return to this stage.. It tore my heart out.. I cried and I cried.. I hated work, I hated talking on the phone. I still hate work and talking on the phone, but that is something I can work on myself.
6. Don't ever think that you are alone.. I made a promise with a friend. I told her that I would not kill myself unless I talk to you first. This little promise that I made, made me feel accountable. So try to find a friend to talk to. IF you can't find one, then message me. I will be here. I come on at least once a week..
ok, tootles people. I love you all.