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[TheSuitcaseKid]

I just joined yesterday, so uh just thought i'd introduce myself My name's Ramona, I'm 18. Hi

So I'm here because I'm generally crazy. No one has been able to completely tell me what is wrong with me... I was diagnosed with OCD about 2 years ago, but my symptoms didn't exactly tick all the box's for OCD. I had 2 main fears, one of being sick (emetophobia) and another of a man stabbing me. I see this man, I hallucinate. I've seen him since I was about 5 years old. My OCD was severe as at times I did not allow myself to sleep or eat, I also couldn't concentrate or listen to people because I was too busy counting or doing different compulsions. After 2 years of CBT and medication, I don't have OCD anymore, I don't do compulsions, but I still hallucinate.
My problems could have possibly started when I was 5 when I went missing in Italy for a few hours. I don't remember what happened in this time and I never told anybody where I was.

But I still see this man every second of every day. Sometimes he shouts too loud for me too hear a thing. I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm so so tired of it. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of not fitting in with people. I feel so alone.

Ok got a bit depressing there, anyway so It would be nice to talk to people who felt the same, or to get some ideas of what is wrong with me. If any problems fit OCD behavior, hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, depression, hypochondria, insomnia :P