I'm debating with myself whether I should write on here, I've never found anything helpful for how I am. I'm adult,well in to my 20's and I've had no life,I'm friendless and the closest thing I've ever had to a relationship was when I was 18 and was basically assaulted. I've been alone all my life. I get up,feed some animals and then just nothing for the rest of the day. I live with my parents and were not close,they bullied me when I was younger and now we barely speak. I don't know what's wrong with me, I hate people, I'm lonely, I want someone, can't bear the thought of being with someone. Everything scares me.

I've tried doctors,anti-depressants,speaking with someone. Nothing has ever helped me. I'm sick of being me.