I simply cant stand the fact that some people think being mentally ill is a mindset that is easy to change. Like I choose to be the way, I can choose to think myself better.
Sure you go to therapy and you work on your issues. There is nothing I will ever say in therapy that I havent already thought of myself. I have tried to ignore my issue, tried to think of what caused it hoping that maybe knowing why I could change things so that it wouldnt bother me. I have also told myself that paranoia is an irrational thought. I have done this to the point where I no longer trust myself. I literally can sit there and argue with myself (I dont speak out loud) about how I am being irrational and that what I am worried about isnt real.
I would say its driving me insane but I already see a shrink and a therapist who are nice enough to give me meds and my crazy papers.