not really a rant

[Jessica.]

alright well this isnt a rant or a rave. just well i dunno...lets start here. one day i will learn that with no expectations there will be no disappointments. seriously! like i'll always say 'okay dont expect much' but deep down in my heart i always do and i'm always let down. i cant even explain this right now i'm so heart broken. damn my 'enfp' personality and making emotional bonds to everybody i meet -______- ugh one day i will learn to let go. i swear one day i will not have a care in the world and just do me 100% but until then i'm going to stop depending on others and what others do to make me happy and just focus on what i can do to keep myself totally peaceful and happy and having a good time! damn enfp personality...

[gotoverit]

Jessica,
Probably you will find in time you will become quite bored with just self preoccupation. You would do better, I think, to invest some time in helping someone else. Maybe visit an old person in a retirement home or babysit for neighbors children. Just something to get out of yourself.

[Jessica.]

i'm getting confirmed this year, i do a lot of community service! and i babysit for my neighbors on the reg. i dont know, i feel like i just hit the last straw of being disappionted because of someone else.