Didn't Last Long This Time

[Gray Matter]

I went to get something done to my car and had some time to wait so I went to the Library across the street. It was a weekday so not many people I thought, well I went in and there were quite a few, I started to build anxiety and had to leave the library, there might have been 6-10 people and I could not handle them all. My symptoms are getting worse, I have got to get my S__T together so I can make it to be able to go back to work next week. Man am I in Deep S__T if I can't go back to work. New Meds are not working yet I guess. Well any way this was how it went.

[Jitterbug]

You are trying though, remember you cant do it all at once. Imagine how long you have had panic and how long its been cementing the notion in your subconcious that going out is dangerous. You need to keep going out to the point that you are comfortable. Don't make the mistake of pushing yourself too hard.. just til your comfortable, then return. Then try again maybe further.
Don't worry too much, your long term well being is really your main concern. I lost my home, my family, my job... yes it can take all those things away... but you need only yourself. get yourself back and all those things come back with it. Two years ago i couldn't, just couldn't get out of my own yard, driving was impossible, but I beat this thing. You can beat it too. You will be able to go to the library, attend work and even wait in grocery store lineups. Don't give up, don't beat yourself up too bad, go to where your comfortable and then back.. try again maybe a lil further. You CAN do it.

[Gray Matter]

Thanks, but add all the other diseases on top and I am loseing, OCD,GAD ,AGORAPHOBIA< SEVERE DEPRESSION, AND PARANORIA. I just am loseing to life 30 years of self medicateing on Alcohol. I have been clean and sober since Jan of 1998, Then all the Meds, Shock therapy. Cognitive behavior outpatient courses. Hospitilation. I am 46 and am on my third marirrage which looks like its ending and am just to point ogf giving up on life, all that is keeping me from putting a bullet in my skull is my pets. Thanks for the advice.

[whyme LS]

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[whyme LS]

sorry about this i really needd to put alink on something and wont let me un less i have ten post so stupid i know

[duckduckduke]

Baby steps. do it for those pets They deserve it and so do you.