I hate you, honestly. You wonder why? Maybe because anytime i try to tell you whats going on you never listen. I've tried and tried nothing ever works. you're set it your ways. Why do i have tto be a prisoner, why do i have to feel like shit all the time. Why can't i ever be happy. you say you can't please me but thats a lie. i've told you i just want some freedom. i figured after the panic attacks and passing out and trips to the hospital you'd realize how serious it is, its not just some little game or me trying to get attention. i admitted i'd cut myself, took pills and contemplated suicide yet you still don't listen. whats it gonna take dad. whats it gonna take for you to finally open yours eyes up to your little girl and realize i'm not so little anymore and i'm not perfect. I'm broken because of you. i'm isolated in this little room. You say i can talk to you about anything but when i say what i need to say, you get mad and don't listen. you're always right? no, this time your wrong. You make me feel so terrible about myself, you always put me down. maybe thats why i do half the things i do, but i honestly i don't think you care how you make me feel as long as your living your life. which is the only thing that matters, huh. All i ever wanted to do was make you happy, make you proud of me, but I'm realizing that never gonna happen. I can't do this anymore I always come in second best, i'm sorry i'm not good enough for you. i didn't ask to be brought into this world. i wish you'd just listen. /: