Hi. I don't want to say my name, I'll just say I am A.M. About a half hour ago I was trying to get to sleep and I started looking around my room. All the lights were off. I just started to freak out for no reason. It wasn't a full-blown panic, but I just felt like everything was about to close in on me. And then I started to worry that if I did have a panic attack, nobody would be able to help me because I live alone and it's 4am and nobody is awake, so I can't call anyone. I don't even know why I felt so anxious all of a sudden, but I felt so scared and alone. I was just terrified it wouldn't stop. I went outside and took some deep breaths of cold air and that really helped calm me down. But after I calmed down, I just started sobbing uncontrollably, like I was releasing something inside of me. I am still crying and I think I am writing this mostly just to let out what I am feeling right now. I want someone to talk to but it's late and no one is there. I am not scared now, just emotional and overwhelmed. I don't know what's wrong.
I've never had a full-blown panic attack, but occasionally I've gotten these "mini" ones before. I am 22 years old. Sometimes I just worry that they will get so much worse as I get older, and that I will feel more and more unstable for no reason. I don't know why I am so upset but I can't stop crying. I feel so alone.