so scared to be alone!!!!!!!

[Pretty Rikki]

i feel so alone, my gf broke up with me cuz she cant handle me. my mom lives 6 hours away and cares for my grandmother. my friends r there but i cant open up and let them see how messed up i am. i am all alone. i go home everyday and close the blinds and jsut stare at the tv. i jsut had foot surgery so i cant even get around. my ex-gf has been helping me out but just knowing that she is leaving makes me panic even more and she cant be around me when i panic because shes dealing with her own issues. my doc put me on lorezapan and it works most of the time until the obsessional thinking gets too much. i feel like im losing it! sometimes i would rather die than feel this way. i am so scared to be alone, there is probably so much wrong with me thats y she left me. i cant take it anymore

[Amandaswan7]

I feel your pain. My bf told me he feels like an adult daycare center. But you know what, this too shall pass. I hate being alone too. Good point- the thoughts are hard to just make go away even with medication. I'm on clonazepam (klonopin). I was afraid to drive but I forced myself to and after a period of time it got better. I know that is way easier said than done tjpugh. Good luck to you. Hang in there. Sorry bout ur GF. You will find someone one day that will love you no matter what and want to help take care of you when you are having a hard time.