Hello, i'm new to this forum. I have a phobia that is difficult to deal with. So far with the research i've done, I haven't been able to find anyone with the same phobia. Is this even a real phobia?
I am afraid of prosthetic limbs which is probably the worst phobia anyone can have. Some take offence, I hope none of you have. I'm afraid to go to "my" doctor about this, becuase i'm afraid he might test me. I've tried to expose myself to photos or videos in which i'm fine for the most part. I saw a vid with Amiee Mullins which changed my persepctive of prosthetic legs, like the amazing Cheeta legs. By the end of her vid, I wasn't looking at them with the same piercing fear but I kind of saw them as postitive. I was even smiling. Though I haven't been exposed to the real thing. I wonder if my pretty new view of them might shatter if I were. Prosthetic arms on the other hand... I've had full blown panic attacks. Just wanting to run, shaking and sweating for awhile after. It's been like this my whole life. At first it was hospitals and wheelchairs. When i was sixteen or seventeen that fear just stopped. That year I even sat in a wheel chair, which was a total suprise to everyone. Alot of this stems from early childhood experiences. I remember watching this horrible safty videos in grade one or two. Like kids walking on train tracks, or having a bad encounter with farming equiptment and fires. These were graphic too graphic for childern, imo. I remember turning around at one point and covering my ears.
I try to be very considerate, it's hard to maintain composure but I try. This isn't something I'm exposed to very often. It's mostly what's broadcasted on tv, the internet or liturature that I see. I hope you all understand.