why is it that some things are so much harder than others? i have been doing so well lately and as for the panic it really hasnt been that bad, i have still been having the attacks but i have been able to control them so i can get on with things, i have learnt a really great meditation that seems to be calming me so thats good.
But the other day i had to go into town and i dont understand why but i had a complete meltdown, and i just had to escape and afterwards i just felt like a complete failure i mean i was starting to do so well then this had to happen and i just feel like i have stepped back again, i know that it is the agoraphobia and that because the shoppig centre is so big i do feel alot more vunerable, and i hate that, i hate feeling so vunerable that i could cry.
And now i am feeling like i dont want to do even the simple things anymore because i have had this set back, i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs because just when i am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel something goes wrong, i just want my life back and i am the most impatient person and i want it now.
I just want to scream!
luv gizzy :x :x :x :x