the end.

[fire]

fuuuuuuuuck.
i'm never gonna get better. i've tried everything. i know you're not supposed to talk shit about this chat, but people are like "over"-happy. no one understands.
nothing heeeeelps. i have done my best and i don't wanna fucking do this anymore.

anxiety is a big problem in my life, but nothing compared to other shit.

I'M SICK AND TIRED! FUCK IT ALL!

I even managed to "find" a hole lot of valium.. i took them all, drank loads of alcohol, took some more "sedating" stuff, didn't sleep for 72 hours the day before.. and my anxiety was still there. i did it so i could get through one day of school. but fuck it, i can't stand it anymore.
NOTHING HELPS.. no one can help me.

"life is what you make it.."

fuck, my life is over.. i'm gonna end it one beautiful day =)

that was my rant folks.. enjoy your lives.

[dino]

Hiya fire

Sorry to see you are of the assumption quoteeople are like "over"-happy. no one understands.

I would like you just to have one hour without panic anxiety etc believe me i know what a hell this is and i wouldent wish it on my worst enemy

I find and i am sure i speak for many others on here that people here do indeed not only understand anxiety and how debillitating this illness is say we may come across happy but in reality are far from it ,surely if we were all ok we would be signing onto www.imsoeffinghappy.com and not phobics awareness :P

next quote : even managed to "find" a hole lot of valium.. i took them all, drank loads of alcohol, took some more "sedating" stuff, didn't sleep for 72 hours the day before.. and my anxiety was still there. i did it so i could get through one day of school. but fuck it, i can't stand it anymore.
NOTHING HELPS.. no one can help me.

Now your going hate me for my next piece of advice here but i can also assure you alcohol mixed with vallies is as you know is a definite no no it is no wonder your feeling so bad ,i also hope you understand the dangers of mixing drugs with alcohol

NOTHING HELPS.. no one can help me.

Believe me on that last line above fire if i had a pound for everytime i say that i would be a millionare but in reality only one person can help you and that is yourself ,we can support eachother here and for that i am grateful as i hope you can be too

My last bit of advice for what it may be worth is please talk to your gp asap if you are having suicidal thoughts as here we are not trained or qualified in dealing with suicidal thoughts or tendancies we are mere suffers of mental health issues ourselves <_<

Thinking of you and i hope you soon get the proper treatment you so rightfully deserve

love dino
xxxxxx