Hey there i just thought i'd share this and see if anyone else has the fear! i have yet to meet anyone who has. I have a horrendous fear of choking,mostly on food but when i see people chewing on things i immediately freak and think what the hell are you doing??? i have this immediate image that pops into my head of them or me dropping to the ground and not being able to breathe and going blue and dying and suffering so much coz they can't breathe.it really is a horrible way to live. I think my choking fear came on about 3 years ago when i encountered my first panic attack,at this time i didnt know it was a panic attack,i was home alone and thought i was going to die.i have never been so scared in my whole life.this panic happened when i was eating some toast,so at the time i assumed it was because i had choked on the toast,but later realised i hadn't.so i immediately in one day went from having a perfectly normal food relationship...e.g eating food without really thining of danger or without worrying about swallowing and choking,to being scared to eat anything. i lost a lot of weight quickly,i blended everything and really only realised how skinny i got when my trousers barely stayed up. since then i have pushed and pushed myself telling myself that i have to act "normal" to become normal. i went to talk to sum1 that gp referred me 2,it helped then slowly the fear resurfaced.i am going to do a computer programme ive bn referred to next week.i'll take any help i can get but i just fear it won't work because ive not managed to beat this in a 3 or 4 yrs,why would anyhting change now? i feel like giving up but i dont want to and can't coz i can't live much longer like this.every meal,every day i fear.i have to plan ahead if im going to be eating out and i stress my friends out coz i say i wont have anyhting.i don't say to them no we're not going there,but i say i can't or im not hungry or il have sumthing that is "safe" like soup or sumthin that melts which can sometimes be a bar of chocolate.it's completely taken over my mind.i see people eating sandwiches etc and laughin and joking and im like there going to suck that back any minute,but they never to choke.yet i chew and chew and chew and still think i'll choke.the stupid thing is i've never had a massive choking spell.any help at all would be great. i am sorry i did go on,i could actually write and write and write but i won't.i just feel theres no way out of this and i want a better quality of living.thanks,im glad i found this place.