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[pogollie]

Hi
I'm a 30 year old who has battled with various anxiety disorders and depression since my early teens. It started off with OCD for which I had CBT, it helped for a while but then things just got worse. Now I suffer with panic attacks along with some social problems. I have always been shy but my problems now are more than that, I will quite happily go to work and do everything I need to, but as soon as some one suggests a night out I freeze. just the thought of going out makes me panic. at first it was just I had to have someone with me who I really trusted like good friends, but now i will only go out if I have to and prefer to have my parents with me. It is so silly I'm an adult who can't socialise with people without my parents. I started a new job 6months ago and I'm sure my collegues think I am boring because they go out regularly together and always invite me but I can't. what if I panic or get left alone? there are all these what ifs and they are slowly ruining my life. I am a person who needs other people to survive but I am losing friends one by one because i am no fun. I am so lonely I have thought about self harm and suicide. when I'm not at work i feel like a prisoner shut in my house.

sorry about that but I have never really had anywhere I can just let my true feelings out before

pogollie

[margo]

Hi pogollie

Welcome to PAF. Sorry to hear about your anxieties and phobias. You will find that a lot of us have similar problems to yourself and therefore we understand what you are going through. Look forward to speaking to you on the chat forum.

Margo

[dino]

Dear pogollie
A huge welcome to the forum as margo has already said "You will find that a lot of us have similar problems"

Was nice to meet you in chat last night and i look forward to getting to know you better real soon
love dino
xxxxx

[-Meg-]

Hey pogollie,

Welcome to the forum. Thanks for taking the time to explain a bit of your story

Try not to worry so much about what other people think about you not going out etc, although I understand that bit of freedom would mean a lot to you. I tend to find being honest with my friends helps, even if I just say 'look I'm not so comfortable with coming out all night, but sure I'll pop along for a bit'. Tthey won't think anything less of you and will appreciate your honesty. I was quite shocked at how my friends tried to understand without me even telling them that the reason behind it was fear of panic etc.

We all have to find our own way and I hope you find some wonderful friends and support here.

Hope to see you in chat soon.

Take care

Meg xxx

[FLORENCE]

Pogollie,,,,,



Nice to meet you,, This is a place where you will be able to talk to others like yourself,,,,,You are not alone here ,,,,

FLORENCE xxx

Hi pogollie

Big To The Forum

You Will Find Load's Of Support Here And Under Standing, I Enjoyed

Meeting You In Chat, You Are So Not Alone Here,Look Forward In Getting

To Know You Better - You Need Not Be Sorry For Letting Your Feeling's

Out Here,That's What We Are Here For








lvs cheer xxxxxx

hi pogollie
Have seen you hanging in chat
hope see you again soon
Hugs Gayls

[Stray]

hiya Pog *waves*


it is so nice to meet me.




and remember... Life may be hard sometimes, but it is 100% better than the alternative.