saying hello

[sunny]

Hi everyone! My name is Sunny. I've been hanging around in chat for a few weeks now but finally found the courage to say hi on the forum.

I'm a new member to the panic club. I haven't even been shown the secret handshake yet. Looking back (hindsight is a wonderful thing) I can see I've suffered anxiety for a long time but just pushed it away and ignored it. Ignoring stress is bad. It make me have a major meltdown and suffer panic attacks I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I used to get up in the morning and mentally run through all the things I was going to accomplish that day. I used to have a spring in my step. I used to be the office clown. I used to be the 'responsible one', the 'reliable one'. I used to be a lot of things.

Now, in the blink of an eye, I have anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, irritable bowel syndrome and enough stomack acid to give a dozen people ulcers. I don't know myself anymore. I have this dark cloud of panic and anxiety hanging over me as soon as I wake. I lost my life and I'm not sure if I can get it back.

I'm trying. I make myself get in my car twice a day and drive around my local area. I make myself go to the local shops (I can't face a big shopping centre yet). I make myself walk around the block. I make myself stick to one cup of coffee a day instead of my usual eight. I am seeing someone to help me get a hold of this. Some days are good and other days I feel that panic start to rise at things I think I've conquered. Those are the days I find comfort, support and hope here.

Thank you to all those I've already met in chat. Thank you to Anna for pointing me to the forum and offering kind words. Thank you to Cheer who inspires me without even knowing it. Thank you to Caligirl for making me smile. Thank you to all who have made me feel welcome and safe. You give me the courage to push on when I feel panicked. You rejoice with me when I make improvements (which means sooooooo much to me).

Thanks for letting me spill my guts. I will try to offer as much support to you all as has already been shown to me.

Sunny

[-Meg-]

Hey sunny,

Met you briefly in chat this morning. Apologies I headed off so quickly!

Thanks for posting a bit about yourself. Hope to speak to you more soon.

Take care

Meg xxx

[Rich-Admin]

Hello Sunny,

Welcome to the site.

Best wishes jk & dolphin.

[bet]

hi Sunny,

We havent met yet.Welcome.I am recovering from panic/agoraphobia.Its not easy,but in saying that its not easy living with it either.I know you are making yourself do stuff and fair play.

Remember to be kind to yourself also though.You are doing great work .


hope to chat soon

Bet

[wench1975]

welcome to the site hun ,,,,, i hope you find support and comfort with us ,,, we are all really nice people that suffer as you do
hope to catch you in chat
love wench(wendy)

[sunny]

Thanks for the welcome guys. Much appreciated!

[jenanne]

hi sunny welcome to forum and chat very supportive places

jenx

[dino]

Hiya Sunny
A huge welcome to the forum ,we are a great bunch and you will find loads of support
Reading your symptoms i can so so relate to everything you said i look forward to getting to know you more both here and in chat
love dino
xxxxxx

[mittuck]

Hi Sunny,

Welcome to the chat and forum, I think I may have seen you in there a couple of times.

Look forward to maybe talking to you soon

Take Care
Mittuck (Michael)

Sunny

Big Welcome To The Forum As Well Chat.

You Are Doing Fantastic On Reaching The

Goals To Freedom, Small Steps Are The Biggest

Ones And Pushing Your Self As You Are I Admire

This Is A Tuff Battle But You Are Doing So Well.

All Of What You Go Threw I Understand So Well.

You Knows Give Your Self A Big Pat On The Shoulders

For Giving The Coffee Up Going On The Walks Around

The Blocks, Each Step You Do Will Get Better For You.

We Will Fight This Battle The Bunch Of Us, Your A Fantastic

Person, Now Off I Go To Click My Heals To OZ :lol:

This Is A Song A Great Mate Off The Site Gave- Me I Belive

The Words Are To Be Well Said.



[youtube]/v/l4XhMANcCbM&rel[/youtube] Thxs Loads Sunny On The Complement.


lvs cheer xxxxxxxx