As many of you know i raised my neice. since very young age.
she came out tonight for dinner, with her brother seemed bit down
but happy to visit what she's only known as her home, all she could talk on was drug'sover over, proud she acted, but i seen this sad in her saying aunty i need help, i got in a panic telling her that drug's fear me, and she just started to cry
i huged her and told her ill always be here for her, she's to be living at her other aunt's, and tryed to say i am the only MUM she's known, i told her ill get her help
and she said she's not hit bottom yet, she left and huged me as i cryed but did
not let her see, 2 hour's later she calls and say's she's on PCP, and said i was the only one she could talk to, but in the midst i got in a panic, BC I FEAR DRUG'S
i know this should maybe on rant's raves sorry i am going on, but i Just dont know
what to do, how to help, and the anxiety and panics i get from drug's hearing or talking on them scare me. she is only 16 a wee child, i have a sick daughter
and hard to try taking care of her added grandchildren.
i guess i rambled on long enough as i sit and just cry thinking what can i do? I fear she will OD at the rate shes going.