Hi everyone I am new to this site but having looked thru, you all seem wonderful peeps. I am 23, married with a 2 year old daughter. my family think im a drama queen and i just irritate my husband who is not really a support to me as he doesnt understand me not enjoying closeness as i feel "smothered" I am agoraphobic, have had panic attacks for 4 years and also suffer depression. i can leave the house but not more than 2 or 3 miles away, does that make me agoraphobic? I have huge mood swings and various personalities and I also have an addiction to shopping for clothes. To the outside world I am pretty and bubbly and appear so confident but to be a "nutcase" is still a taboo subject. If you mention anxiety or panic attacks you are ok but as soon as you mention agoraphobia, ocd or borderline personality disorder its as though you have a disease thats catching and no one wants to go near you!!!!!!! not being bigheaded here but men do try and chat me uo but as soon as i mention mental illness they are off!!!! the fact that im married doesnt put em off but as soon as mental illness comes into the pic its see yaaa!!! lol. the doc will say, "but you are beautiful. whats wrong with you?!" as if being pretty cures bloody everything! Id rather be ugly and happy, normal, really I would. stuff looks. someone talk to me please!