Advice

[-Meg-]

Okies ... bit of a long story but some background.

I started CBT about this time last year. I attended about 10 sesions but over a long period of time, about 10 months! (This was all due to me not wanting to go and talk to someone.) I was very lucky that I had someone to pay for these sessions during this time.

I wasn't finding it very helpful, in fact it was making things worse and I ended up getting very upset and having panic attacks during therapy so had to stop going.

I was referred back to my GP who before then hadn't known anything about what I was going through. My therapist wrote a letter explaining the situation, so again I said very little. I then saw an NHS Psychologist for an assessment, the outcome being that he agreed with the diagnosis but that I should go back to my therapist.

I then spent the next few months doing nothing and steadily getting worse. I finally decided last night that I had to do something otherwise things were never going to get any better and I'd go downhill even more. I spoke to therapist today and confirmed that I wouldn't be able to go back to her. (I've known this for ages but just been kidding myself that I would be able to)

So now I'm stuck again ..... I guess I need to go back to the GP, but have no idea what to say or what will happen from here? I'm still very cautious about talking to anyone about everything .....

Just looking for some advice really. It's taken me this long to finally decide I need some help, esp since I have to start looking for a new job soon. At the moment I have the suppport of my employer, I won't have that soon.

Thanks in advance.

Meg xxx

[dino]

DEAR MEG
FIRST OF A HUGE HUG HAS TO GO TO YOU FOR WANTING TO TAKE THE HUGE STEP AND CONQUERING WHATEVER PROBLEM IT IS THAT IS STOPPING YOU FROM GETTING ON WITH YOUR LIFE ,THAT ALONE IS A HUGE ACHIVEMENT ON ITS OWN
I NOTICE YE SAID THAT YOUR FIRST LOT OF THEARAPY MADE YOU WORSE ,BELIEVE ME MEG I HAVE BEEN THERE AND HAD THE PLEASURE O GETTING DISMISSED DUE TO MY PANIC
MAYBE BY GOING BACK TO YOUR GP AND GETTING ANOTHER NEW THERAPIST MEG YOU MIGHT FIND EASIER TO OPEN UP TO
ANOTHER SUGGESTION WOULD BE TO MAYBE ASK YOUR EMPLOYER WHO SEEMS TO BE A VERY GOOD FRIEND TO MAYBE COME ALONG WITH YOU FOR THE FIRST COUPLE O SESSIONS
OH SHIT I THINK I AM MAKING A HIPS O THIS SORRY MEG
ALL I CAN ADD IS THAT I AM THINKING OF YOU AND WISH YE ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD ON GETING WELL AGAIN
LOVE DINO
XXXXXXX

[-Meg-]

Sorry ... I went off on one a bit there, what a long post about not much at all!!

Thank you for your reply and advice dino

Gawd I'm rubbish at making decisions, and even worse and getting things done once I've decided

Now I'm pretty much undecided and have gone backwards GRRRRR such a wimp, or in other words very scared!!!!