being numb isnt healthy, Ive been there done that. I understand the pain and anguish. I am having a day like that today. I feel so torn inside that I cant imagine a brighter day. But I have to I need...

If this keeps up you will probably lose him. Not being mean but I know in the past I hated it when women have done this to me. If there isnt trust there is not much room for a healthy relationship.