Welcome to Phobics Awareness! I'm so sorry to hear about the hard time you are having, sounds like you are having a rough night! I would be more than happy to talk with you, but I'm just a fellow sufferer like yourself. These types of conversations are hard to continue .. if you want, feel free to send me a private message or we can make a time to chat in the chatroom. The chatroom is open 24 hours a day, and there generally is someone there in the evening time (going by U.S. time). I pop in and out of there and also moderate the forums here.
What's going on for you? Stay safe, be gentle with yourself and know that you aren't alone. It's very powerful to have a group of people who can validate how hard it is to get along with our disorders and illnesses. I look forward to hearing from you!