Death.......

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

I want to die and I was have and always will. People say to stop trying and get over it. They tell I'm nothing and after 3 years I finally think its true.... I have cut myself for 3 years. And I try to stop but nothing stops no one care everyone says that they want me gone and that I'm a wast of space..... What am I going to do after all these years? If you know how to help me not end my life I would love that. My friends tell me all the time that im their best friend but one day there never around when you need them and after that you have no one. What am I going to do. I just want to give up.......And right now i think I'm done for good, I think that would be the best for everyone. if you can help me.... Help

[s1mpl33m33]

Hi im Shabz and i no exactly how ur feeling

[s1mpl33m33]

i no nothing is goin to help, but i hope nowin tht ur not alone in the world will make u feel a bit less lonely.
How is ur relationship wiv ur parents?

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Dads been dead for 3 years moms not all that nice.......

[s1mpl33m33]

hold on there, do you talk to anyone or are you on any medication?

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Nope why do you ask??... :-?

[alaynajanelle30]

Don't kill yourself, you ar important to people out in the world, you just don't know it . I get what your going through , I've been cutting myself for about 5 years now, and i still do it. I have tried suicide mannnny times, and different ways , but I finally reliazed that there is someone out there that cares about me, or that will care, and that suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem . If you eve need to talk to someone , message me, and remember that i love you<3

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

I thought I had found that person I really did.... But he gave up on me like everyone else.

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Oh I do more than just cut I burn a choke and try to pass out. And I think I'm addicted to pain pills.... Can anyone help?

[In_A_Dream]

Hey beautiful. Don't listen to anyone who tells you that you aren't gorgeous. You mean the world to someone, everyone, to me. You are amazing and have so many talents. You need to stay strong ok? I know you can't just stop. Believe me, I know how you feel. But you aren't a waste of space. You are a gorgeous, wonderful, talented human being. I love you <3 ok? Draw a butterfly for me k? Believe me I cut too. I'm here anytime you want to talk. Don't end your life. It will hurt others. Especially me. I love you forever, my beautiful love. <3

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

I just feel like its time to give up........

[linzi]

hi blackangels

i found your story very sad. you are feeling bad enough with your illness without having to deal with this kind of treatment
You should remember that depression and anxiety disorders are true illnessess, you did not ask for it, and you have been brave enough to try and live with it, have you ever spoken to your doctor about this are you on medication. if not you need to speak to your doctor
You also should remember that you are wanted in this world or you would not be here, there is a good place for you if you try and get proper help, stick with your friends at least they care keep away from people who would hinder your recover and health

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

i have no friends really eveyone turns on me like i did something bad.... And i dont want to talk to a doctor i tryed to tell my mom but she said i was crazy and never talked about it again.

[KirbySmiles]

I would advise you visit a doctor. I felt immediately better after I had someone to talk to. Like you, I don't have any friends. I do feel alone but visiting the doctor and being referred to a therapist was the best thing I've ever done. My Dad told me I was crazy but I insisted I wasn't and he eventually understood. Good luck!

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

my mom will not believe me and she hates me

[matt2424]

hey whats up just really reading what you are going thru really makes me feel hurt inside to see you hurting and no one helping out.... i dont go thru what u go thru but i suffer from panic attacks and i already feel sometimes im going to die.... i wana show u love and what im saying is im here for u... im a christian i beleive in jesus Christ and that he is God.... im not here to judge you or accuse you of anything.... just wana let you know that Jesus can change your life because he did for me and i hated life and went thru alot of junk in my young years..... i pray for u and i want u to know killing yourself or hurting yourself is not the solution to relieveing pain or stress or even just feeling alone.... there is hope but you have to want it there is a purpose for you in this life... cry out to Jesus and ask him for forgiveness of your sins and trust in him.... if you need any help im here for you

[linzi]

what makes you think that everyone hates you

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Thanks Matt. And Linzi i know they hate me because they tell me to my face even my old friends and then walk away like i was never alive. So i thought it would be better that way.....

[linzi]

Thats very sad to hear how people are treating you, if they only know what its like to live like this everyday, you dont want to be like this, you did not ask to be like this, are you getting help from a doctor or support group, because if not then i think you should, sometimes people need a lot of help to recover from your illness, and it is a illness.
One of the best things i done when i was ill was to not allow people who made me feel bad, had no sympathy i stopped letting them be a part of my life and this helped me a lot.
You need to get yourself among people who understand your illness, you also need to look after yourself as well its not being selfish, this illness is bad enough you need the right kind of help and support and i hope you can get it because you deserve to have some happiness in your life
Linzi

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

There's no group and I told my mom I want to go and she said I was a freak....Doctors heak no! I just don't know how much more I can take......

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

I had A break down with my friends and "brother" yesterday.. My "brother" said that drinking would help me so I did it. And I kinda woke up this morning with my arm bleeding...... I cut 8 times.. I need help but I don't know how. Any help?

[matt2424]

look thhe only way you can help your self is by not depending on any ones advice thast is negative.... we all suffer in this world it doesnt mean that we should make it worst on ourselfs..... after death theres heaven or hell thats it no fairytails like they show on the movies, im not trying to offend you i wana help and show love to u... its hard to wakw up everyday and feel depressed about life and our purpose for even living....my life changed when Jesus christ stepped in an showed me that i dont have to fear cuzz he is with me and .... i trust him wether or not i die... cuzz i know he is worth everything he said in his word...aka the bible........hit me up talk to me ill listen and wont force anything on u...... u got m
y word

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Thanks... That a really good idea. Its just I don't have any friend besides the ones that are negative I don't wanna be alone... And I might take you up on that talk lol. Thanks!

[matt2424]

i totaly understand bro.......just remeber this God is in control it may not seem like it due to the fact, that your going throuigh some radical stuff in life right now but we all go through it day in and day out..... but man let me tell you God is so good to me and i dont deserve it... hit me up in a message with your number and ill shoot you a text names matt

[BlackAngelsOfDeath]

Sorry about the last on I just..... Sorry

[nanoo109]

you are trying to destroy yourself to get the attention of people around you but this will make them fear to be with you. Remember that you are not the only person with problems and the people around are not so strong to help you and they will disappoint you. the best for you is to get help from professional person and group therapy and if needed you should face the problem with your parents in front of a psychanalyst. if you want the people around you to love you, start by loving yourself and be more self confident in your action and behavior and fight your weaknesses and fears.