Feeling trapped

[Kristy17]

Hi everyone. I'm new to this site and just wanted to have someone to talk to who is going thru what I feel. I have anxiety which has gotten way out of hand these last three years. I am terrified to go anywhere or talk to anyone so I spend most of my time at home. Sometimes I'll go and drive my car around but I rarely go in anywhere. I want to be around people and meet new people but I feel like I'm holding myself back. I'm just hoping to find some people to talk to online. I also have bipolar but am taking medication for all of this. Anyways I hope to hear from some people in here. I am excited to.

[gotoverit]

Hi there,
I was a victim (at least I feel a victim) of anxiety and even now I still have tendencies towards that. I think a lot of my anxiety came from high expectations of myself and others. I don't mean to point the finger but I was raised by a mother that was never satisfied and when I thought I met her goals she changed the goal posts not just moved them further out but around to the other side. I became confused and felt betrayed. I use to scold myself and even curse myself and my behavior. I would find ways to punish myself and others so relationships have been difficult. I haven't wanted to venture out and take risks with others due to the history. I won't join and be part of anything at church for the same reason. I guess the reason that I cope pretty well now is that I have accepted failure and that gives me a balance, but I would love to be better with others.

[LifelessKatie247]

Hi Kristy17
I'm the same I very rarely go out anywhere, I have been this way since 17 I'm now 23 :S It's not a nice feeling of being alone, it is a big help to talk to people on here though.. I'm also on meds for anxiety and depression although it's got to be said they help the depression but obviously not the anxiety.. Anyway, I hope you find this site helpfull.
Take care

[lilgoth89]

hi Kristy17
im very much similar to you, my computer has become my life at the moment. i very rarely go outside
most of the times when i do venture out is to wander the streets at night, aimlessly, and usually without seeing another person

[LisaMarie]

Hey everyone! I am in the same boat! I have had anxiety since I was 8! I am not 23 and in the last year it has gotten progressivly worse!! I barley leave! And when I do leave i am worried about dying. Sometimes I dont know what i am even afraid of. i push everyone away!!! =( I dont have a drivers license and am araid of taking medicine because i dont wanna feel weird or out of my mind..even know i kind already do..ugh frustrating!

[LifelessKatie247]

My laptop is my life too atm very sad :( Lisa: I'm on meds and I don't feel weird or out of it, there not for everyone though