Danni87
02-23-2011, 08:34 PM
I am in dire need of someone to listen to me.
I'm currently going through a relapse of depression, my first spout was nearly 18 months ago after i found out my partner had cheated on me and was an alcoholic.
Other things happened around the same time which contributed, so i was put on anti depressants but after 3 months of taking them i felt that i didn't have to anymore and i just stopped. What a huge mistake that is learning to be because right now all i want to do is go to sleep and never wake up.
Go to sleep where i can be at peace, where i can be away from everyone who doesn't understand me.
I have only been back on the medication 2 days, my partner went out this evening for a few drinks. He text me at 11.30pm to say that he was having one more then he'd be home.
To cut a long story short, he didn't come home until 1.30am by which time i was feeling really low and all i wanted was a cuddle.
He is drunk and came to bed but he wasn't listening to me.
I tried explaining how i feel but he told me to fuck off and to leave him alone as he was tired.
I feel so alone, no one understands me and all i want to do is die.
Depression is an awful thing and i wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.
I hope that one day all these negative people who question what depression is really like will get a glimpse of what it's like living with a feeling that you are worthless, pathetic and ugly every minute of every day.
The only rest i get is when i finally manage to fall asleep.
I want help but just can't seem to find anyone who will help me.
I'm currently going through a relapse of depression, my first spout was nearly 18 months ago after i found out my partner had cheated on me and was an alcoholic.
Other things happened around the same time which contributed, so i was put on anti depressants but after 3 months of taking them i felt that i didn't have to anymore and i just stopped. What a huge mistake that is learning to be because right now all i want to do is go to sleep and never wake up.
Go to sleep where i can be at peace, where i can be away from everyone who doesn't understand me.
I have only been back on the medication 2 days, my partner went out this evening for a few drinks. He text me at 11.30pm to say that he was having one more then he'd be home.
To cut a long story short, he didn't come home until 1.30am by which time i was feeling really low and all i wanted was a cuddle.
He is drunk and came to bed but he wasn't listening to me.
I tried explaining how i feel but he told me to fuck off and to leave him alone as he was tired.
I feel so alone, no one understands me and all i want to do is die.
Depression is an awful thing and i wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.
I hope that one day all these negative people who question what depression is really like will get a glimpse of what it's like living with a feeling that you are worthless, pathetic and ugly every minute of every day.
The only rest i get is when i finally manage to fall asleep.
I want help but just can't seem to find anyone who will help me.