hmmm

[jinxy]

I've been selfharming for 8 years, ive been to hell and back with it and had more close calls than i can count. Ive had stitches ive had major infections. I cant seem to get myself out of it ill have fairly big gaps now between the times when im seriously self harming.
The thing is ive managed to help others to stop or not start, ive given people the support then need to seek suitable help. Why cant i help myself when i can help others.

Maybe i enjoy helping others? ifact its not a maybe its nice to think that i can stop others getting into this mess.

I just dont knwo anymore

[rqqrh]

Why cant i help myself when i can help others.
this, this happens to me too, i always seem to be able to help others but never myself, i don't tell my problems to people for fear of giving them burden or something like that, i don't seek for much help, i've had stitches various times too, i have been struggling with self-harm for about three years now, but right now i'm trying to stop because it hurts my parents greatly, and i don't want to hurt anyone else but myself, i still do bruises eventually but i don't cut myself anymore, have you ever tried to stop?