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ade
10-30-2009, 11:12 AM
imagine the burned out wreckage of a car after a car bomb.
the twisted remains and the annhiliation of all inside.
that is how i feel after the violent rapes i suffered as a boy
they drowned my soul in black ink
i am so upset today,i am an atheist yet i would beg to kneel at the feet of jesus,mohammed,buddha,
and weep for every single abused child.i held out my arms towards the t.v
and implored the boy in the nspcc ad to come to me to be safe.
please please everyone believe your beloved children
please please honour the trust you are privalledged to be given.
jigsaws,teddy bears,games,stories,gentleness,kindness,sweets and ice cream
not abuse, force,manipulation,rape,a personal holocaust,armaggeddon.
im so sorry this is very upsetting
im so sorry
ade

i love my beautiful children i cherish every second
they were made of love
and loved they shall be

massagemom
11-04-2009, 07:53 AM
oh honey,
i know that was hard for you to write, and may be hard for some to read, i can suggest that you read the book "the shack" you may get something out of it, but you are so right --- its all about the children, teach your children well, let them be loved, take care of them, give them hugs, do not let past repeat itself at all costs

letting things out is the key to gettin on with your life -- i think you are going in the right direction.

i belong to no group or religion, nor is it a topic for chat, i can tell you however I DO BELIEVE and thats what gets me through, and altho i feel as sometimes i am going through hell here on earth, i also believe all my sufferings are in the past and for a reason as to be a better person, friend, mother, therapist etc

Good Luck hon
massagemom

FLORENCE
11-04-2009, 12:10 PM
:) :)
Ade ....
I found this and it really sums up what I was going to say ..

https://i95.photobucket.com/albums/l142/kittykat8925/believe.jpg

God Bless,
Florence
xxxxxxxxxx

ade
11-05-2009, 02:37 PM
thank you both so very much xxx