WHY DO I LET MY MOTHER HURT ME!!!!!!!!

[tommygirl25]

:angry: Why is it that everytime I start to feel a little better, my mother comes along and makes me feel like dirt? I don't know how she does it everytime. I am sick of her walking into my life and making me feel like trash just because it makes her feel better. She called me today and started to fight with me about her boyfriend. I don't give a flying fuck about her boyfriend. I am really sick of her coming to me with her problems. At first years ago I would always be nice and give her advice like I was the parent and she was the child. She never listened to me and ruined her whole life with different guys, so now that I am older and know how the real world is, I told her I wash my hands of her problems. I am so sick of telling her something and then later she does the opposite and then comes to me and bitches saying its all my fault. How is it my fault that she screws up. I let her hurt me my whole life and make me believe that I am worthless and useless and stupid and fucked up, when really its all her. I can't believe I let her get to me this way, because of how she treated me I thought I did not deserve better for my life, and now at age 26 I have finally smelled the roses. I now understand that I am a good person and I deserve better. When she called me today and started in on me again, I just said fuck it you want to hate me fine, I don't care anymore, and I just started calling her every name in the book. Finally I told her that she annoys the crap out of me. I told her that men hate her and leave her cause she nags and bitches. I told her she is evil and taught me nothing, that I had to learn from her mistakes to be good and kind to people and not let them walk all over me. My eyes are finally open, and I know how to stand up for myself. I feel like I am in charge for the first time ever. I feel like I have the control now. No one will bring me down, I will survive. I didn't have a father and I don't need a mother either, I got myself that is all I need.
Sorry about me cursing but I needed to get it out and I feel great now :)
take care all
love,
tommygirl25

[lostinlife]

:angry: Why is it that everytime I start to feel a little better, my mother comes along and makes me feel like dirt? I don't know how she does it everytime. I am sick of her walking into my life and making me feel like trash just because it makes her feel better. She called me today and started to fight with me about her boyfriend. I don't give a flying fuck about her boyfriend. I am really sick of her coming to me with her problems. At first years ago I would always be nice and give her advice like I was the parent and she was the child. She never listened to me and ruined her whole life with different guys, so now that I am older and know how the real world is, I told her I wash my hands of her problems. I am so sick of telling her something and then later she does the opposite and then comes to me and bitches saying its all my fault. How is it my fault that she screws up. I let her hurt me my whole life and make me believe that I am worthless and useless and stupid and fucked up, when really its all her. I can't believe I let her get to me this way, because of how she treated me I thought I did not deserve better for my life, and now at age 26 I have finally smelled the roses. I now understand that I am a good person and I deserve better. When she called me today and started in on me again, I just said fuck it you want to hate me fine, I don't care anymore, and I just started calling her every name in the book. Finally I told her that she annoys the crap out of me. I told her that men hate her and leave her cause she nags and bitches. I told her she is evil and taught me nothing, that I had to learn from her mistakes to be good and kind to people and not let them walk all over me. My eyes are finally open, and I know how to stand up for myself. I feel like I am in charge for the first time ever. I feel like I have the control now. No one will bring me down, I will survive. I didn't have a father and I don't need a mother either, I got myself that is all I need.
Sorry about me cursing but I needed to get it out and I feel great now :)
take care all
love,
tommygirl25


tommy its so great to here you sounding so great at the end of that, i know the feeling as i did the same to my mum about a year ago, well done sweet stay strong and keep believing in your self, well done to you
best wishes comming your way
lots of love

*Huggles Tommy*
Hell yeah! Good for you. This otta go in the achievements thread. :D (Well, maybe with a few censors.)