How it started for me

[Chiguy]

My Agoraphobia started after a freind and I were at a night Club and I passed out!when I awoke I had people all around me asking me what drug I took,I don't do drugs. I felt I had to go back in and when I did those feelings came back again and I had to leave and go home.The next day I felt wierd and spacy and then the scary thoughts started.Anxiety took over followed by the panic attacks.Then I got really scared and here I am.My biggested problem is anticipatory Anxiety,I think to much of what I have to do or place I have to go and I think what if? I what if myself to death.I try positive thinking alot and for the most it helps.

[angie]

:) HELLO CHIGUY,
IT CAN TAKE ONE THING TO START OFF AGORAPHOBIA AND ANXIETY AND SOME OF US DON'T KNOW WHEN AND WHY IT STARTS.
''WHAT IFS'' CAN BE AWFULL AND I KNOW FROM MY LIFE, SOMETIMES THE THOUGHT IS WORSE THAN THE ACT.
HAVE YOU SEEN A DOCTOR?
IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR YOU TO GET SEEN BY ONE AND THEN GO ON FROM THERE.
IF THERE'S ANYTHING YOU NEED GETTING OFF YOUR CHEST, WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.
ANGIEXX :)

[Chiguy]

:) HELLO CHIGUY,
IT CAN TAKE ONE THING TO START OFF AGORAPHOBIA AND ANXIETY AND SOME OF US DON'T KNOW WHEN AND WHY IT STARTS.
''WHAT IFS'' CAN BE AWFULL AND I KNOW FROM MY LIFE, SOMETIMES THE THOUGHT IS WORSE THAN THE ACT.
HAVE YOU SEEN A DOCTOR?
IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR YOU TO GET SEEN BY ONE AND THEN GO ON FROM THERE.
IF THERE'S ANYTHING YOU NEED GETTING OFF YOUR CHEST, WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.
ANGIEXX :)




Hi Angie,

Something that I have learned through all of this is that what if's are just that,A what if ! but sometimes we get so caught up in it that can't see anything else. I have been seen by a doctor and that was right after this started,they did evreything to find out what was wrong.I was expecting something physical and when the tests came back nothing was wrong.They then told me that I should consider a medication for my nerves.I took it for 2 months and I was more depressed as it made me want to sleep all the time.So when I went back they put me on Paxil and he told me it would take 3 weeks to take affect.The next day at work I took the pill and whammy it hit me hard,I was smiling and laughing and people thought I was high or drunk! I went to my boss's office and asked her if I could leave because I wasn't feeling well and she looked at me and said are you kidding you are smiling from ear to ear! I had to tell her that I was on meds for anxiety and I could not handle the effects. I did have to cut the dossage and it just made me not care,laugh,cry,hate nothing. I then stopped taking it and ordered a self help program from the US,which are tapes and a work book. It is called ATTACKING ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION,and It did help me alot.Just to know what I had and that other people have the same problem and that I was not alone.I also went for counseling but got no where with that because they wanted to find out about my childhood and not deal with my body symptoms. Thanks for being here for me,Talk to you soon.

[angie]

Chiguy, Personaly, I found that going through things from my child hood helped me deal with allot. I didn't realise I carried so much with me. I thought it pointless and intrusive at first but now I can see that going through the nasty things helped me be a little less hard on myself.
Talking to like-minded people is also helpfull.
I'm glad you found us and wish you peace :)

[Chiguy]

Chiguy,* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Personaly, I found that going through things from my child hood helped me deal with allot. I didn't realise I carried so much with me. I thought it pointless and intrusive at first but now I can see that going through the nasty things helped me be a little less hard on myself.
Talking to like-minded people is also helpfull.
I'm glad you found us and wish you peace* :)



Hi Angie,

I agree,my childhood has alot to do with my anxiety. I grew up with an alcoholic father who did nothing but put me down and as I have found out through all of this he also has anxiety and drinks to easy his own pain and fears.
Thanks, Mario.

[dino]

DEAR ANGIE AND CHIGUY
I AM NOT SURE WHAT EXACTLY STARTED MY AGORAPHOBIA,ANXIETY AND PANIC OFF I WONT BORE YOU ALL TO MUCH BUT AFTER HAVING 2 PERFECTLY HEALTHY CHILDREN NOTHING COULD HAVE PREPARED MY HUSBAND AND MYSELF FOR OUR 3RD MUCH WANTED CHILD TO BE BORN WITH A VERY RARE SYNDROME ,I BLAMED MYSELF FOR MANY YEARS THINKING WAS IT MY FAULT ETC HE IS NOW 17 AND THROUGHOUT HIS LIFE HAS UNDERGONE 26 OPERATIONS AND IS SEVERLEY HANDICAPPED ,I WONT TRY TO DENY THAT THINGS WERE HARD COS THEY WERE AND STILL ARE BUT I WOULD NEVER EVER SWAP HIM FOR THE WORLD ,WHILE HE WAS SO ILL ETC I COPED AT THE TIME AND HAVE TO MENTION FELL PREGNANT AGAIN WITH MY FOURTH WHO IS NOW 14 AND YOUR NORMAL TYPICAL TEENAGER (nightmare)LOL
THREE YEARS AGO MY MUCH LOVED FATHER DIED AS DID FOUR CLOSE FRIENDS ALL IN THE SPACE OF SIX MONTHS THAT IS WHEN I BECAME VIRTUALLY HOUSEBOUND AND CAN SEE NO FUTURE ,DAY IN DAY OUT I AM IN A CONSTANT STATE OF ANXIETY AND PANIC ,SORRY FOR WAFFLING ON BETTER SHUT MY MOUTH NOW BEST WISHES TO YOU BOTH
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[Chiguy]

Hi Dino,

That is alot for anyone to go through in a life time.My heart goes out to you.I think you are a strong person as even people without Anxiety problems could't handle all you have.As for blame I always thought my father was an Alcoholic because of us kids! What was that all about? You have been blessed with your son and look at his challanges he has the will to survive,God bless him.I know you are a great mom as most people with our condition are great people and give,give,give without wanting anything in return except love and understanding.Don't feel like you are Waffling on we are here to help each other and I am glad you are sharing your story with me.Take care and talk to you soon,Mario.

[angie]

:D YOU'RE RIGHT MARIO, DIANE IS A GREAT MUM.
SHE'S FUNNY AND CARING. I COULD LISTEN TO HER 'WAFFLE' ALL DAY.
IT'S DIFFICULT ENOUGH WITH OUR CONDITIONS WITHOUT HAVING TO BE A CARER, AND HER AND HER HUBBY DO A WONDERFULL JOB.

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[dino]

DEAR MARIO AND ANGIE
I AM SITTING HERE WITH TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE AT YOUR BEAUTIFUL KIND REPLIES ,FOR A CHANGE I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS OMG THT MUST BE A FIRST FOR ME LOL
LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU BOTH
DIANE (dino)
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[Chiguy]

Hi Diane,

Happy tears are good! Loss for words aye ( Canadian thing) Aye! LOL :)
Lotsa love back at you,keep smiling your worth it.Thanks ,Mario.

[dino]

DEAR MARIO
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS AND MA LOVELY FLOWERS OR AS WE SAY IN SCOTLAND MA FLOOOOORS LOL AYE ,YOUR A STAR
LOVE DIANE
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