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03-30-2008, 09:47 PM
i self harmed after about 8 month's last night...... i don't know what to do. cut myself 5 times ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate myself right now :(
03-31-2008, 04:04 AM
Brian,,,,,Pick yourself up,, don't be so hard on yourself , and start right now for another eight months withourt ,,ok??
Thinking of you,,,
03-31-2008, 09:26 AM
:( Hey Brian, hope you are doing ok.
You don't really hate yourself is just guilt - it is really hard stopping cutting and you need to be proud of what you had acheived.........one slip up doesn't mean that you have to do it again. Hopefully this time you other coping strategies. I know it is hard but you can't let it drag you back in (is viscious c***le... depression-harm-guilt-depression-harm....)
You have beaten this thing once you can do it again,
03-31-2008, 12:49 PM
Dear Brian, I understand your feelings of hating yourself right now, I have felt that way after hurting myself, and I always feel bad afterwards thinking of how hard I had tried not to do it. The thing is, you are trying really hard, and although you might be feeling mad at yourself right now, try and remember, we are only human, and we can only try our best. Take strength from knowing people here understand and care for you, you will get through this, and as long as you try, you will overcome these things in time.
Its hard to live through this and not find moments of weakness, you are doing your best though, and thats all people can expect.
Keep trying Brian, there are brighter days ahead, love pixie x
04-15-2008, 03:48 PM
oh brian hunny, i sat in my bathroom staring at a razor..yes/no i swear i was goin crazy hunny i started runnin it up my arm cryin,shakin this isn't me whats going on..........last couple of times i found myself there again staring...staring an more staring,what would u say 2 me hun????.............not good hey,last nite i cried myself 2 sleep wanted everythin 2 stop my concentration gone,self confidence gone, whats left 4 me ? my kids they dont need a mum like this..................heads straight 2 bathroom yet again devil in me starts scrappin again,no help tears rollin they r better of without a poor excuse of mummy, i lay in bed covering my wounds cryin again............this isn't me "where am i". ive gone mental no-where 2 turn hate myself,others who has hurt me. hun i know how u feel but im beating myself up 4 this an so r u............not good, im not sayin i wont do it again ill try my best not 2 but hun were hurtin ourselves we r goin through enough without this. hope u r ok m8 spk soon love, hugs an kisses nichola xxxxxx
04-22-2008, 03:13 PM
i know what you're going through. when i was 14, i started cutting my upper thighs, where no one would see the cuts. around two years later i got better and didn't cut for years, but recently i've been cutting my wrists. i just stopped caring if people saw. luckily i have a very good friend who loves me, and he can usually talk me down when i want to cut. but sometimes he's at work or something and i just can't help it...
05-07-2008, 12:07 AM
Hey Brian, long time friend.
I was checking the forum to see how my old friends were doing. i am sorry to see you are having i rough. What brought on the self harm. Was it that you felt guilty for doing so well? Don't be too hard on yourself Brian. You have done great things. We all have set backs. We need to learn from them, not dwell on them. You have been great to those of us that have needed help in the past. Dont forget how much you have done for others, now do the same for yourself.
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