08-13-2007, 05:52 PM
I just so sick of the way I feel. I feel like everyone hates me. No one takes the time to listen (or read) what I say so they take what I'm saying all wrong. Then when they finally do read what I said its to fucking late anyway. :(
Last night I busted my head on the new sink my husband put in my bathroom. It really was not that big of a deal my only concern was how much it was bleeding. I was sitting on the bed with my head up against the wall and a towel inbetween, In about an hour i managed to soak 3 towels. I told the room and called my husband who is a cop to come home. I kept putting my hands in it because the way it felt I had thought it was a hole that I could fit two fingers into. It did not hurt at all tho. I stood in the room and typed away letting everyone know what was going on, as a matter of fact I don't even think I mentioned it for the first hour before I called my husband. I went to the hospital and it turns out it was not a hole but a flap. they gave me some glue (if you can freaking imagine that) and a few stickes I had a catscan to make sure all was well and was back at home after about 4 hours. I was so proud of myself for not freaking out at the hospital, I stood calm threw the hole thing and did really well. ;)
As soon as I got home I jumped in the room to report how well I had done. Instantly I was PM'ed by two members telling me how the people in the room were not only making fun of me but acusing me of making the whole thing up! :o Can you imagine. As if I did it for attnetion. Only one problem if I made it up I had to leave the room until the middle of the night when virtually evreyone was gone. :blink:
These people that I talk to everyday and consider to be my chat buddies were making fun of me? I felt the knife slide right into my back. I feel like a fool, I feel like No one really gives a shit about me here and not very many even like me. So why am I here. Why do I bother to stay. :(
I have noticed recently that when people do reply to my posts they seem to be mocking me for what I write or take things tottaly out of context. On person practacally called me a moron for something that I posted that help me. I just don't get it. Am I a nasty person. I must be at the very least anoying to have such a negitive respose from people. I just dont understand. :huh:
Emma :unsure:
Last night I busted my head on the new sink my husband put in my bathroom. It really was not that big of a deal my only concern was how much it was bleeding. I was sitting on the bed with my head up against the wall and a towel inbetween, In about an hour i managed to soak 3 towels. I told the room and called my husband who is a cop to come home. I kept putting my hands in it because the way it felt I had thought it was a hole that I could fit two fingers into. It did not hurt at all tho. I stood in the room and typed away letting everyone know what was going on, as a matter of fact I don't even think I mentioned it for the first hour before I called my husband. I went to the hospital and it turns out it was not a hole but a flap. they gave me some glue (if you can freaking imagine that) and a few stickes I had a catscan to make sure all was well and was back at home after about 4 hours. I was so proud of myself for not freaking out at the hospital, I stood calm threw the hole thing and did really well. ;)
As soon as I got home I jumped in the room to report how well I had done. Instantly I was PM'ed by two members telling me how the people in the room were not only making fun of me but acusing me of making the whole thing up! :o Can you imagine. As if I did it for attnetion. Only one problem if I made it up I had to leave the room until the middle of the night when virtually evreyone was gone. :blink:
These people that I talk to everyday and consider to be my chat buddies were making fun of me? I felt the knife slide right into my back. I feel like a fool, I feel like No one really gives a shit about me here and not very many even like me. So why am I here. Why do I bother to stay. :(
I have noticed recently that when people do reply to my posts they seem to be mocking me for what I write or take things tottaly out of context. On person practacally called me a moron for something that I posted that help me. I just don't get it. Am I a nasty person. I must be at the very least anoying to have such a negitive respose from people. I just dont understand. :huh:
Emma :unsure: