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[musicmanJ]

Lately, I've been depressed to the point of not wanting to live. This scares me a lot. Currently, I have no close friends and, most of the time, it seems as if my family doesn't care. Has anybody been where I'm at now? If so, how did you get through it?

I've tried many medications, but they tend to make me feel even worse. I've tried Xanax, Paxil, and most recently Buspar. The Buspar was terrible. After taking it, all I seemed to do was sit and think of being violent. I stopped taking it because of that.

Hiyas musicmanJ

Sorry your feeling like this and yeh can sympathise off lately i have had days like yourself and it is awful and to tell you to do this or that when your feeling the way you are still doesnt make it feel any better huh, ppl say to me put music on watch a funny dvd and i sit thier and think wtf honest so im not even going to say that to you, but one thing i will say that i do find that helps me when i am feeling low is to talk to someone, anyone even a crisis help line samaritins just someone to have a listening ear so you can pour it all out.. Also think of the good days you have had when you are feeling so low write down how you feel what triggered the thoughts etc so on.. Days like this wont go on and on you will start getting some good days are you in counselling or seeing Dr on a regular basis? Does he/she know how you are feeling? I am finding it hard here to find the right words without trying to help you be positive about things also because i know the exact thoughts i have when someone tries to put positive across when im on a low like yourself.. But listen you do have friends you have us!! Myself and everyone here will be here to help you get through it anytime you need a shoulder or to vent know im always here

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Caroline xxxxxxxxx

[musicmanJ]

Thank you for the reply Caroline. It makes me feel better than I have a friend in you and others on this site. Thank you, I really appreciate your friendship.

-Jason

[pokerstar]

Lately, I've been depressed to the point of not wanting to live. This scares me a lot. Currently, I have no close friends and, most of the time, it seems as if my family doesn't care. Has anybody been where I'm at now? If so, how did you get through it?

I've tried many medications, but they tend to make me feel even worse. I've tried Xanax, Paxil, and most recently Buspar. The Buspar was terrible. After taking it, all I seemed to do was sit and think of being violent. I stopped taking it because of that.




musicmanj, yes i have felt that kind of depression, it is awful and sickening to the stomach, Im sorry your illness is as bad as it is, when i was at that stage , it seemed to me also that my family didn't care, ( well thinking back on it now they could have helped a lot more ), truthfully though i don't think they understood how bad it was for me, mainly cause i didn't tell them and when i was around them being so low they thought i was just moody.

It took me a long time to get over it and i made many mistakes, people just didn't know how to get through to me.

In the end i was lucky and went into a rehab where they had intense therapy for seven months, all that time i was heavily medicated with citalropram 60mg a day. with the therapy and medication and being able to talk all my stuff through that had made me depressed, eventually lifted the depression, i never at the time thought it would end, but now Im sitting here depression free . thank god.

I can relate to the way you are feeling, but would also like to say, once doing the right things for me to heal, took medication for a few years and properly taken care of in therapy and just being allowed to tell my story and releasing the pain i had inside, over time i did get better.

Hopefully this helps a little but this is how i did it.

Hope you feel a little better soon

take care , all the best , rob, aka, pokerstar