THIS CANT BE ANXIETY CAN IT ?????????

[dino]

SORRY IM HERE TO MOAN AGAIN JUST SICK TO FUCK FED UP O FEELING LIKE IM DYING EVERYDAY ,TRIED STARTING THE DAY OFF BY SAYING OK DIANE NEW YEAR NEW YOU BUT I WISH TO FUCK IT WAS THAT SIMPLE
I TRY BELIEVE ME I DO I SAID OK CMON YOUR GOING A WEE WALK WITH MY HUSBAND WELL EVEN BEFORE IM OOT THE DOOR IM SO DETACHED ,LIGHTHEADED ETC THE PANICS ALREADY SET IN
TRY TO FOCUS ON MY SON IN CAR SURROUNDINGS ETC ALL TO NO AVAIL
HUBBY LET GO MY HAND FOR A SPLIT SECOND I NEARLLY LOST IT BIG TIME AS THOUGH I WAS GOING TO PASS OOT ,COME HOME TRY LOOKING AT A BOOK BUT EYES BLURRY IM SHAKING INSIDE SORE CHEST YOU NAME IT MRS HYRICHONDIAC O THE YEAR HAS IT FFS
IM SITTING HERE WRITING THIS CONVINCED THIS IS MY HEART OR CANCER AGAIN WHY TO HELL CAN I NOT EVEN DO THE DISHES WITHHOUT FEELING AS IF IM ABOUT TO PASS OOT ,WHY FUCKING WHY FUCKING WHY AM I SO PATHETIC
OH SHIT IM SORRY FOR MA SWEARING ANOTHER YEAR O LIVING IN THIS HELL I JUST CANT DO IT ,IM PETRIFIED I REALLY AM ,I KNOW ONLY CAN MAKE MASELF BETTER BUT IM SO SICK O TRYING EVERYTHING AND IM STILL FEELING LIKE COMPLETE CRAP ,SORRY TO EVERYONE ON HERE AND CHAT FOR ALWAYS BEING A WHINING BITCH ASWELL I DONT MEAN TO BE
SORRY IM OFF TO MY PRISON CELL O A BED AGAIN BELIEVE ME I DONT WANT TO BUT IM SO SO SO LIGHTHEADED HYPERVENTLATING ETC I CANT DO NOTHING ELSE ,IVE HAD ENOUGH SORRY
DINO
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[libby]

OH MY DEAR FRIEND DINO, I FEEL YOUR PAIN AND AM SO SORRY THAT I CAN'T HELP YOU, I WISH I COULD, BUT I AM HERE YOU KNOW YOU CAN CALL ME ANY TIME. I KNOW IT IS ANXIETY DIANE, I'VE FELT THAT BAD BEFORE FOR A LONG TIME, I DON'T KNOW HOW THE ANXIETY LESSENED, IF I DID I'D TELL YA HOW.

I HATE TO SEE YA SO BAD :(

HANG ON IN THERE DINO, I KNOW IT'S EASY FOR ME TO SAY, KEEP TRYING WITH THE RELAXATION CD'S THAT YOU DOWNLOADED FROM HERE AND THE CLAIRE WEEKES CD'S, KEEP TRYING DIANE, I KNOW YOU'RE EXHAUSTED AND PROBABLY FEEL LIKE YOU CAN'T TRY ANYMORE, BUT PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP :(

GOD BLESS YOU DINO, TAKE CARE.

LOTTSA LUV

LIBBY
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[Gord]

<span style='color:red'>Dear Dino</span>


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<span style='color:blue'>Sorry you're going though the Down cycle right now, Dino, me darling. Feel really bad for you... But please forget all that crap about the New Year = New Me, etc. It's the worst possible time of year for us to make these changes really - you've just had Christmas to deal with emotionally, it's the depths of bloody winter, cold, dark and gloomy. Yuck!</span>

<span style='color:green'>Spring Solstice is a MUCH better time to "mark" the new year/new you - warmer, lighter days, flowers budding, birds singing in the trees and crapping all over your washing on the clothes line...</span>

<span style='color:purple'>Plus you have three months to recover from Christmas, etc, and slowly build up to it!</span>

<span style='color:blue'>Listen to Libby's Good Words, Dino. Every time you try to go out and it feels awful, it reinforces all the Bad Feelings, doesn't it? And then that makes it even worse for the next time you try. You must counter that with opposite reinforcement in some way, and those tapes are a good aid to that, teaching your mind to defend itself against the Fear. You try the physical relaxation techniques too?</span>

<span style='color:green'>Dino, you have all your friends here to help you, anytime anywhere, and, even better than that blessing, you have a very sweet and caring family to support you, and that's got to be the Tops!</span>

<span style='color:purple'>But you gotta stop blaming yourself, kid, and criticising yourself for what is, after all is said and done, Being Ill. This just isn't a moral issue, Dino, it's an illness, and you can recover from it, bit by bit, step by step. I know Life keeps interfering, doesn't it? Stuff happens to us when we frankly wish the world would just stop turning for a while and give us time to catch up again... And of course we all here know how crushing it can be to suffer the setbacks that almost invariable come along and make us feel that all our efforts are wasted.</span>

<span style='color:green'>But they're not permanent set backs, Dino. They're not "failures" at all. It's just the natural course of the illness, the ebb and flow, and You Can and Will Get Better.</span>

<span style='color:red'>Look into my eyes, Dino. You Can.......... You Will.............</span>


<span style='color:blue'>This is all of your friends here laughing their heads off...</span>

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<span style='color:blue'>... as you rush outside without a care in the world and wave your broom about and attack all those fucking seagulls shitting on your washing!!!</span>

<span style='color:purple'>We all love you Dino.</span> :) :) :) :) :)


<span style='color:red'>Gord</span>
<span style='color:green'>xxxxx</span>

<span style='color:blue'>PS: You DO NOT whine!!!</span>

<span style='color:red'>PPS: "Bitch"? No way!!! Erm, unless that was a typo????? PMSL</span>

[petal]

Dear Dino :)

What more can I say after Gord's eloquent post?

New year is just an artificial thing. Forget about new year's resolutions and what you think you 'should' do. Think small Dino. Have a go at doing the dishes or some other household chore and see how that goes. When you do, try to think about what it feels like to wash the dishes like "I'm washing this white plate, look at the bubbles, what does it feel like in my hands?". Feel the warmth of the water on your hands. Feel what it's like to have your hands in the water. Give the task your full attention. When your mind wanders off into panic etc, bring your full attention back to the task - washing the dish that is in your hand and the movements you need to make to wash the dish. Be aware as you are putting the dish into the drying rack. Keep bringing your attention back to the task at hand.

I know my method might sound mad to you as it is a very different approach to managing panic/anxiety but I've found it to work. It comes from Buddhist psychology and is known as mindfulness. I've seen two psychologists who use it and am currently practicing it. It doesn't make the problem go away but it does stop it in its tracks and I'm able to get on with things without resorting to taking pills or going to bed.

It sounds like your thoughts race you away into panic/lightheadedness and this just generates more panic. What I'd do is direct my thoughts away from my growing panic and onto an object that is outside of you ... like the dish in your hand. I've been trained in this technique to deal with my generalised anxiety disorder and I've found it to work.

As Gord says, you are experiencing a bad patch. Things will change.

I know your problem is severe and I'm not trying to discount its severity at all. I think that your responses to your panic have become entrenched and that a new approach to dealing with the problem might help.

Hey, I really feel for you Dino as I know you are in a lot of pain.

Thank goodness you have a loving family around you. That's a wonderful blessing.

You take care of yourself now.

Thinking of you
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[dino]

DEAR LIBBY,GORD AND PETAL
FOR ONCE IM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS ,YOUR KINDNESS TOWARDS ME MEANS MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER EXPRESS ,WHEN I WROTE ABOVE POST I WAS AT END OF MA ROPE IN IN SOMEWAYS COS O ALL THIS ANXIETY PANIC EXAUSTION ETC I STILL AM
I THINK ITS MAYBE JUST THE THOUGHT O NO ANOTHER YEAR O HAVING NO LIFE
I KNOW MYSELF DEEP INSIDE I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN CURE MASELF ,EASIER SAID THAN DONE
I KNOW WITHDRAWING OFF THIS BLOODY VALLIUMS IS GOING TO BE HARD BUT THERE DOING ME NO GOOD AND IM NOW DOON FROM 15/20MG A DAY TO TEN SHOULD BE 8MG BUT XMAS WAS STRESSFUL (any exuse ffs lol )
WANT TO ADD THAT YOU ALL HAVE GIVEN ME BETTER ADVICE AND ENCOUROGMENT THAN ANY PYCHIATRIST OR POXED UP PHYCHOLIGISTS I HAVE EVER MET AND I THANK YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART
LOVE DINO
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[Stray]

hello Dino.

Wanna sing Frank Sinatra songs with me?


i think we'd be a Cracking Pair and we'd shoot up the Top 40!!!


now, that has no bearing at all on what your thread is all about, but then again, i did read all your words, just couldnt think of an appropriate reply.




I think it should be mandatory for all psychologists to have had at least one mental disorder so that they can know the true pain that we feel.

[sniper67uk]

Hi Dino

So sorry to hear your going through the bad patch i do know how desperate that makes you feel and all relaxation and self help goes straight out the window when its like that.
You must allow yourself to have bad days as the good days will come back just try to roll with it your not on your own you have this wonderful place to tell us what you feel and NONE of us get fed up of listening because we all suffer the same.(group HUG ).
The bad days make the good days feel better.
Luv snipes

[dino]

STRAY I DINNA LIKE FRANK SINATRA BUT CAN IM NO SO BAD ON THE BAGPIPES PMSL
LOVE DINO
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DEAR SNIPER
CHEERS AND THANK ONCE AGAIN FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT AND LISTENING TO ME MOAN AWAY IN CHAT ,YE HAVE THE PATIENCE O A SAINT LOL
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LOVE DINO
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