Scared

I have recently started to self-harm again because i am in so much pain and i cant cope without self harming. I know i have only the release for a few hours but its worth it to have physical pain rather that the crap thats in my head

Jules

[dino]

DEAR JULES
SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR GOING THROUGH SUCH A HARD TIME ATM ,YOU HAVE THE STRENTH TO OVERCOME THIS HUN I KNOW YE DO
JUST REMEMBER WE ARE ALWAYS ALL HERE FOR YE
LOVE DINO
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(((((JuLes))))))

sorry you are having a ruff time, stay strong hold up please remeber
lot's are her to support you pm any time keep posting , all my best to you.


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[petal]

Dear Jules :)

Oh honey ... are you getting some professional help from a therapist? Before self harming becomes a regular habit, do try to go and see a psychologist/therapist. If you can't afford to do this, do go and see your doctor to ask them about low cost options for psychological assistance.

At the end of the day, self-harming is doing just that - harming yourself :( . It can't assist you at all but ultimately make your mental health worse.

Please do try to get some professional assistance sweetie. Your whole life is ahead of you and your future can be bright.

I know it's easy to say but this bad period of your life you are currently going through will pass. Change is inevitable.

Sending you magic fairy dust
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Thanks to all that replied

I am seing someone about what happened to me as a child and that is why the self harm as come back after 4 years i am having flashbacks and nightmares and i feel so alone with it right now.

No-one seems to understand where i am coming from becuase of the abuse i suffered at the hands of many people this as left its mark on me and now i cant cope

[beverley]

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dear jules
please make sure you get help as im sorry that you are going through this
make sure you come in chat and get support as there are plenty of people who care for you
love
bev
xxxxxxx

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Jules hiyas hun,

Id like you a big big hug right now (((( )))).
Sorry to read that you feel so low again to point you have self harmed, i understand where you are coming from re having to release the pain, at the time you do feel if you harm or inflict pain it will release the pain you feel inside!
The abuse you suffered as a child in no way was your fault, abusers have power, manipulate and bully their victims and your still feeling that yrs on. And, now that you are opening that closet and talking about it your feeling it all over again, the flashbacks the nightmares and it will feel very raw right now. And like myself as much as you are told you were an innocent child you feel some way to blame but after two years of therapy i am starting now to feel anger more than blame. I started self harming it was a release in a sense to take the pain away i was feeling inside, i felt it like a grieving pain as therapy went on the flashbacks got worse and i did hit rock bottom to the point of suicide, i had low self esteem i hated myself i didnt like the look of myself even looking in the mirror i hated the person staring back and worst of all i didnt love myself...
It is going to be hard, you have to get it all out its going to be hell and back but stick with it and i promise you it will start to get a little easier. On Friday i had a flash back (Hadnt had one for a good few months) and it set me back, i talked to Dr most of the day and a good friend and it helped, so, if you are ever feeling low,or just need to talk can PM me anytime ;> Dont feel alone and when you are feeling low remember its a bad day a set back but you will come through.
Take care hun thinking of you. Hugs
Caroline.x.

[petal]

Dear Jules :)

Honey, when you are feeling very low or wanting to self harm DO come into chat rather than hurting yourself. People in chat will welcome and support you and being in chat might distract you from your thoughts of wanting to self harm. If you can, let others in chat know you are feeling particularly vulnerable and I'm sure you'll get support and care from others who are in chat.

You are going through a difficult time at the moment seeing a therapist about what happened to you as a child. The flashbacks and nightmares must be really terrible to cope with. Do come into chat especially when you are having a difficult time. I don't get into chat much at the moment but when I do I'll keep an eye out for you sweetie.

You take care now. You are trying really hard to deal with what happened to you. Remember to try to be kind and gentle with yourself.

Magic dust from me to you
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